A buddy asked about the condition of my prayer life.
I had no idea what to tell him. So while my mouth hung
I reviewed my memories of the past 24 hours.
I wrote a thousand words yesterday,
hopeful one would find a friend.
“It’s always OK to ask for help,” I told my son, pouring concrete between
our present and future selves.
My head bobbed in time to a song by The National. I even played
Bm G D A on my air guitar.
Then I flinched when
the singer promised not to ruin
My eyes traced the contours of a Scott Cairns poem,
then closed in worship
to read between the lines.
I challenged every father’s fear of failure to an arm-wrestling match,
then exclaimed “Jesus!”
both an expletive
and appeal for strength.
I stared at the thumbnail of a Rothko painting,
and memorized the blue.
I scrubbed my bare arms and chest
with green soap,
baptizing another day’s shame and watching it
cascade down the drain.
Using soft kisses to plot points, I drew a map of my wife’s collarbone,
then leaned back to examine the legend.
Over the course of the day, I sighed something like 32 times.
“I pray without ceasing,” I told my friend and considered the matter settled.
Cover Image by Ümit Bulut