feels like I’ve been away and missed roll call
for years, but I’ve been here all along, only homed
within my brother’s sorrow. The Thief has snatched
his treasure and run, and run, and nothing’s left
but grief’s gouging—a barren crater—and death’s
irony: for he who bequeathed us Communion
has shattered a union—or so it seems. I sorrow
for my brother’s sorrow, stand beneath his heart,
holding it in place today, tomorrow, and as many
as it takes for heart to find its hinge and beat again.
I vow to wait. Not soon do sorrow’s howls sink,
dissolve and sweeten; regrets won’t self-absolve
at once; and every morning dust’s relentless pull
returns and every morning the beloved dies again
upon my brother’s waking. Sympathy accepts
and waits. So I will wait while he—vine—slowly
gropes for findings to entwine, I will wait for mist
to soften ground between her ashes and his hair,
wait for grace-time to complete its creeping walk—
grace-time, never sleeping, silently reimagining,
redrawing dreams and redeeming itself in secret.
Cover image by Josh Applegate.